A very emotional and not at all structured late-night rant about Brexit

There are few nights where I stay up past 4am, but yesterday was one of them. Stress-eating one chocolate bar after the other and drinking an unhealthy amount of tea, I was sat in front of my laptop with my eyes fixated on the screen, not-so-patiently waiting for the voting results of each district to be announced. When I was finally too exhausted to stay awake, the iTV reporters already predicted a 75% chance for leaving, so waking up to the result wasn’t much of a surprise, but still a huge disappointment to me.

Maybe I’m completely overreacting and perhaps not much will change at all, but this whole uncertainty truly makes me fear the future. Of course I’m not expecting the UK to suddenly change everything, throw all human rights overboard and start a war, but the thought of the currently conservative government being in complete control still isn’t exactly a reassuring one. 

Fact is, that the EU secured things like the minimum wage, a period of notice, social benefits, LGBTQ+ rights, environmental protectionism and unity and peace between the European countries. Surely, most of this will be maintained in the future as well, but now there’s no guarantee anymore, which does concern me quite a bit.
Apart from that, the economy is also greatly affected by this turn of events, especially if there will be costum charges for importing and exporting goods again. The termination of many commercial relations will ultimately result in the loss of about 900.000 jobs, as predicted by experts from the BBC. Additionally, the value of the pound has already dropped extremely rapidly, which is especially critical for Brits (particularly pensioners) living abroad, who won’t be able to maintain their current lifestyle or even pay their rent if their money suddenly is not worth anything anymore. Hopefully this will all be evened out in the future, but at the moment, there is pure chaos and it will probably be a while till everything can go back to normal.

Another thing that bugs me is the fact that 75% of the 18-25 year-olds actually voted remain and only the older generation was in favour of leaving, even though the youth will be the ones to deal with the consequences. It is so saddening to see how lost, misunderstood and frightened many young people are today, considering it’s actually gotten to a point where many plan to apply for Irish citizenship to have a back-up plan in case everything goes wrong in their country. 

I’ve also seen interviews with leave voters who said that they only decided against remain to protest against government, that they voted leave without really thinking about it and now hope the EU will take the UK back if things don’t work out or even that they put their cross for leave as a joke since it seemed so unlikely anyways. In fact, lots of people simply weren’t educated enough and only become aware of the consequences now that it’s too late.

Meanwhile, the United Kingdom is not very united at all. It’s older against younger generation, the countryside against cities and England and Wales against Northern Ireland and Scotland, who are now considering to split from them for good. (Scotland and Northern Ireland both had a majority for remain, but were outvoted by England and Wales.)

But what worries me the most is that, as it seems, a great deal of leave voters made their choice based on racism and hate. According to polls, immigration was the biggest factor for their decision and, especially in rural areas, people are still unreasonably hateful against foreigners. Just this morning, I saw an interview with an unemployed woman from Bristol who complained about EU immigrants taking away jobs and exploiting the NHS, but when she was asked whether she’d tried actively searching for one, she denied. Well, who’s exploiting social benefits now? For real though, the UK, as a matter of fact, relies on Eastern European immigrants because they very often do the jobs most Brits refuse to do, like working on fields etc. 

The prejudices that are still stuck in many people’s minds are completely baseless and unfounded and I think that, particularly in this time of cruelty and violence, building borders instead of sticking together and uniting for peace is most definitely a step in the wrong direction.

On a more personal level, I’m also concerned about my own future. I fell in love with England the first time I went there more than 4 years ago and have felt more at home in the UK than in the city I was born and raised in ever since. Even when my English was far from being fluent and I had trouble communicating, I felt connected to the people of Britain whom I have always experienced as incredibly welcoming and open-minded. So how come so many of them now stand behind politicians like Boris Johnson or Nigel Farage? Nigel Farage, who promised to invest the 350.000£ given to the EU per week in the NHS instead and only 3 hours after the results came in, declared that that isn’t in fact true and that they lied to the entire country? Who claimed that this battle had been won ‘without a bullet being fired’ when Labour MP Jo Cox was literally murdered throughout the campaign?

Maybe politicians like him are the only thing that should be leaving after all.

As I said before, it’s still impossible to say how everything will turn out in the end, so we should probably try to make the best of it now that the decision has been made. I do not know whether I’ll be able to work and live in England in a few years without having to fear to be deported as soon something goes wrong or whether I’ll be able to stay there as long as I please; I do not know whether the gap between the rich and poor will have become bigger or smaller in a few years time; and I do not know whether this will lead to more prosperity for British citizens or to insecurity and instability, but I wholeheartedly hope that all my fears and concerns will be proven wrong.

I’m sorry this is so messy, this post was originally an e-mail to my German friend who asked for my opinion, so it’s quite jumbled, but I guess you still get the general idea. I also apologise if I unknowingly included incorrect information, please let me know if I did and share your own thoughts and feelings in the comments! What do you you think will change for the UK and Europe? Are you scared of what’s ahead or do you see this as a chance for the country?

Here are some links to posts that I think sum up the overall situation very well and give you a bit of an insight to people’s reactions:

An Open Letter To the Youth of the UK


Music Recommendation: Ryan Keen

ryan-keen-room-for-light-153052Are you ever at a gig listening to the support act and sort of wishing they’d just finish their set so the actual concert could begin? That is precisely the opposite of what I was thinking when Ryan Keen was playing at the Jamie Lawson show I went to a few weeks ago. In fact, I kind of wanted him to go on for at least 5 more hours.

Not only was his voice possibly one of the best I’ve ever heard, but his songs had something so special and magical about them that I sort of wanted to listen to them for the rest of my life. (That’s not even an hyperbole.)

His genre can probably be described as acoustic or singer/ songwriter, so if you like artists like Ed Sheeran, Saint Raymond, James Bay or Ron Pope, you will probably enjoy his music just as much as I do. His debut album is called “Room For Light” and I highly recommend image1getting it since I’ve already listened to it a ridiculous amount of times and still can’t get enough of it.

If you wanna check out Ryan’s music, I’d suggest listening to “Old Scars” first because I feel like it represents his style very well, has the most amazing lyrics and will most certainly make you want to listen to it over and over again.

Let me know what you think and feel free to rec me some more music in the comments below! 🙂


May Favourites



I’ve probably already mentioned a couple of times that I’m a very big fan of David Levithan’s books, so it was only a matter of time until I came around to reading his collars with Rachel Cohn as well. In fact, I already finished “Nick & Norah’s Infinite Playlist” at the beginning of the year, absolutely adored it and was therefore very much looking forward to reading the other two, too. My exceptions were not in the least disappointed, even absolutely outdone: Despite telling completely different stories, the three books form an amazing entity, which makes you get lost in them even more.

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As always, I’ve of course been listening to lots of different artists throughout May, but the genre that really dominated this month was definitely classic rock. A few weeks ago, I had a look through my dad’s CD collection and ended up carrying half of it into my room, where I then listened to it nonstop. Funnily enough, the album I found myself putting on the most, was actually one that I used to hate when I was younger, mainly because I literally despised both rock and blues until I was about 12 or 13 (I know, I know, I’m very ashamed). But when I finally rediscovered “Bridges To Babylon” by the Rolling Stones, I was instantly obsessed and even remembered some of the lyrics from when my dad used to play it on maximum volume in our living room on Christmas Day.


Fashion & Beauty

Bomber jacket

I’ve wanted a floral bomber jacket for quite a while, but never thought I’d find one that doesn’t cost a fortune, so I’d already pretty much given up on searching for one – until I stumbled across some at TK Maxx the other day. Unfortunately, I can’t post a picture of the one I decided on as it’s in the wash, but let me tell you, it’s absolutely gorgeous and the comfiest thing ever!

Flower Crowns

Anyone who knows me in real life will know that I never leave the house without a flower crown, thus it wasn’t even a question that I was gonna wear one to prom as well. However, I had been wearing mine so much that most of them were already pretty much falling apart and definitely not suitable for a ball anymore, which is why I had desperately been looking for new ones in literally every shop I passed. When I still didn’t make a find, I decided to have a look on amazon and – tadaaa – found some really lovely and big ones for only around 2-3£, even with free shipping! I did go a little crazy and bought way more than I actually needed, but who can resist such a bargain? Certainly not me!

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“I love… Mango & Papaya” body spritzer

This one I bought last year in Brighton and just got out again for summer, it’s so nice and refreshing! To me, it just smells of holidays and sunny afternoons in the Pavilion Gardens, which I can never get enough of.


Other bits & bobs

DW Home 1996 Tealeaf Jasmine Blend Candle

Let’s be honest, none of my favourites post would be complete without a candle, would it? I feel like the scent of this one is perfect for summer since it’s not too sweet and therefore not as heavy as some others, so do give it a sniff and chick it out if you happen to see it at TK Maxx or anywhere else! (I just realised it must seem like I only shop at TK Maxx, but then again that’s not even that inaccurate)


Brendon, Gerard and Patrick

Recently, when my best friend and I had nothing to do, we decided to drive to Ikea on our own like proper adults and guess what – we were successful and I think we even looked like we totally had our lives together! The best thing that came out of this little excursion were the cacti we found there though. You know, I’ve always been very reluctant about plants, because, as much I love them, I’m not exactly the best at remembering to water them regularly and since I wasn’t keen on becoming an accidental plant murderer once again, I didn’t wanna take that risk again. But when I spotted these little buddies, I couldn’t help but buy them nonetheless and decided to name them after band members in hopes that I’ll be reminded to deg them whenever I listen to their name twins’ music!